For the first time in a very long time, someone meant enough to me to make me cry and made me woke up feeling like a fucked up piece of shit, just because I know in some way or another, I'm the cause of his unhappiness. I haven't felt like that in 3 years, and to think I'd never find anyone else who can even come close to making me feel like that anymore. It's that hard for me to even be the slightest bit affected towards other people's feelings unless he or she meant that much to me.

I finally realised what is it about him that I'm afraid of.

I'm afraid of losing him. I'm scared shitless, I swear.

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